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Chrissy Teigen returns to Instagram, apologises for her past bullying

She also confessed she’ll be a better mum for her kids.

Chrissy Teigen has returned to Instagram with a lengthy apology post meant for Courtney Stodden, and those she has bullied on the app in the past.

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Chrissy Teigen shared screenshots of her apology note on Instagram on Monday (June 14). The lengthy apology message was published on the blogging site, Medium.

Hi all. It has been a VERY humbling few weeks.I know I’ve been quiet, and lord knows you don’t want to hear about me, but I want you to know I’ve been sitting in a hole of deserved global punishment, the ultimate sit here and think about what you’ve done. Not a day, not a single moment has passed where I haven’t felt the crushing weight of regret for the things I’ve said in the past. As you know, a bunch of my old awful (awful, awful) tweets resurfaced. I’m truly ashamed of them. As I look at them and understand the hurt they caused, I have to stop and wonder: How could I have done that?

She further went on to address her bullying of Courtney Stodden and others, she has publicly bullied in the past.

I’ve apologized publicly to one person, but there are others — and more than just a few — who I need to say I’m sorry to. I’m in the process of privately reaching out to the people I insulted. It’s like my own version of that show ‘My Name is Earl!’ I understand that they may not want to speak to me. I don’t think I’d like to speak to me. (The real truth in all of this is how much I actually cannot take confrontation.) But if they do, I am here and I will listen to what they have to say, while apologizing through sobs.

Chrissy Teigen continued by accepting she was a troll on social media whose behavior was uncalled for. She also confessed she wanted to be a better mum for her kids, Luna and Miles.

In reality, I was insecure, immature and in a world where I thought I needed to impress strangers to be accepted. If there was a pop culture pile-on, I took to Twitter to try to gain attention and show off what I at the time believed was a crude, clever, harmless quip. I thought it made me cool and relatable if I poked fun at celebrities. Now, confronted with some of the things that I said, I cringe to my core. I’ll honestly get sharp, stabbing pains in my body, randomly remembering my a–hole past, and I deserve it. Words have consequences and there are real people behind the Twitter handles I went after. I wasn’t just attacking some random avatar, but hurting young women — some who were still girls — who had feelings. How could I not stop and think of that?. John tells me almost every day how much our daughter Luna reminds him of me. Every day, I try to make sure she’s all the best parts of me, all the things I aspire to be all the time, but fail at sometimes. And we preach kindness to her and Miles every chance we get. Will they eventually realize there is some hypocrisy there? I certainly do. But I hope they recognize my evolution. My goal is to be so good that my kids will think this was all a fairy tale. Not the fake good. The good that has the best intentions, the good who wakes up wanting to make her friends, family, her team and fans as happy as possible. The good who will still f— up in front of the world but rarely, and never not growing only more good from it.

She rounded up her message by asking for ‘patience and tolerance’ as she works on herself through therapy and other avenues.

 

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Written by Ralph Okobz

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