Kira May personifies anxiety and depression in “Muscle Memory”


Kira May found inspiration for her new music through a journey of treatment.


Kira May

Photo: Courtesy of the artist

Last month, Toronto-based singer-songwriter Kira May wrote to me to tell me about her upcoming full-length—Sense—inspired by her anxiety and depression. Both topics are a part of most people’s lives, at once. Explaining that she has been through a lot at a young age, the creative individual shares what inspired “Muscle Memory”:

“Muscle Memory” explores the ways in which our bodies hold onto our painful histories. This is partially a love song for my body, which continuously strives to protect me and push for my physical and emotional survival, but it is also an exploration of the “letting go” required to move forward. When past traumas are no longer dangerous to us, although well-meaning, our bodies’ attempts to protect us can actually become harmful.

This song looks specifically at the damaging effects of negative interpersonal relationships as a very young person who is still forming. In my case, the response was to retreat so deeply into the safety of my own body that it became difficult to get out.

Have a look at the experimental music video directed by Allison Johnston below.